Why is it so difficult for people to understand that I actually like being on my own, I enjoy my own company. Even people who know me well are always trying "fix" me. I have a friend whose first sentence to me after the initial pleasantries are over is "why don't we go out somewhere?" As if my staying at home is some terrible mental affliction which needs some remedial intervention by my well wishers. Don't get me wrong - I'm not anti-social, I do love people, in fact my job is very people oriented, but in my free time I prefer my own company. Why is that so incomprehensible?
Another "problem" I seem to have apparently is that I can't have long conversations on the phone. My average call is less than a minute. Give me a topic and put me in front of a crowd and I can talk for hours, but trivial chat and "aur sunnao..." is something I can't understand.
Unfortunately that is not the extent of my afflictions, apparently I'm obsessively disciplined. I like my day-to-day life to have a certain structure, a certain routine, I like things to be in their places. In this age of chaotic randomness I must be either very boring or abnormal. So I get advice from people whose lives are an utter mess (in more ways than one) to "let go". What they don't seem to understand is that routine doesn't kill spontaniety, in fact my discipline gives me the freedom to act out on my whims.
I love my eccentricity, this is what defines me, this is what makes me different and this is what gives me joy. It takes guts to do what one loves doing rather than to conform to the norm, and I'm proud of it. So my request to everyone - please stop trying to "fix" me!
